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Thursday, February 18, 2010

my mother's advice to problems arise while watching the olympics

Every 2 years, I have a little identity crisis. This problem arise whenever there's an olympic or winter olympic happening. 

I ask myself the same question year after year... "now Lilian... which country do you support?" 
The answer will depend on what sport, which olympic, what are the score.. many various factor. My emotion that day will also take a play in what side I cheer for. 

Do I cheer for Hong Kong? 
or Canada? 
or China? 

Winter Olympics tends to be easier because Hong Kong is not in it. China didn't actively participate in it until last Olympic. Canada was a good choice back then. Now that China is kicking butts... my 4 year problem had became a 2 year problem. 

But for a women's speed skating competition, China and Hong Kong were both in the same race. I had the toughest time to decide which side to cheer for. By the time I can decide on something, both sides got disqualify. 

Charlie and I discover a new problem. What if... China and Canada were playing in something together heads on. NOW... which side do we take part of. 

This can relate to as... identity crisis. I am sure many people who grew up in Canada will have the problem of... am i a Canadian? or am I a Chinese? 

My crisis only happens when I have to choose a side. 
So I decide to have a discussion with my mother about this. At the age of 22, I had a discussion with my mother about identity crisis. My mother's asked " when you are in foreign land "where's home for you?" What will you reply  "Canada" My mother thought the answer was good enough. She concluded that "I am just a Chinese Canadian... don't think too much" 
I eventually bought up how I am actually more Portuguese than Canadian because I am a part Portuguese. 
At the end, my mother got fed up with me and said. 

"Just watch the game. Don't pick a side because God doesn't choose favorites" 

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