these are my ramblings. dont take them seriously. because they are not meant to be taken seriously. if you do, i feel bad for you because you are taking what is on my mind seriously.

Sunday, December 20, 2009

i just came back from charlie's baptism... seeing his friends and him showing their faith to the public reminds me of when i was their age declaring my faith to the public... i can't believe it has been 5 years and 1 day (lol) since my baptism.. and this 5 years, i go through up and down on my spiritual journey. i stood on my own fort and fought many spiritual battles with different people that comes in and out of my life. 
even though different groups of friends do come and go.. but it is really my church friends that has always been around the ones that gave me the hug every sunday and knows me for who i am.. the lilian that has been so innocent that no one has known before. this is the group of friends that made sure i stood firm in my ground and kept making sure i was accountable for. thank you my girlies. no lies. its been amazing to come back and just chit chat for a hour and a half every sunday and do our "girly" routine of chatting with everyone. you girls are the only ones that can truly witness every single change i take place of in the last decade plus. =) 

but on the other day, while i am witnessing these new brothers and sisters in christ accepting the Christ before me- it just hit me how innocent they were when they were like 8 or 9. the answers they used to give me in bible lessons that i want to pull my hair out. i remember when one of them was the quiet little one and now she is leading singspiration. another one will be the tomboyish one has become such a girly girl. i doubt i can ever imagine these kids had turned out so amazing the way they did like today. the kiddies made me so proud. 

witness charlie's baptism. seeing this christian slowly matured and developed into who he is was a God given chance. a chance that i feel special enough to witness. from the clueless about everything child into sharing his testimony with grandma in the kitchen to being able to witness him assist in my bible lessons and to now- baptism. as many of you know.. me and him.. we are like real brother and sister. in fact, we are actually closer to each other than many siblings we know. seeing him turn into a man of God in the home i grew up at- the feeling is undescribe. there are no words being able to describe the exact same feeling i am feeling... 
okay enough rambling. because high school reunion andd justina's partyyyy

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Christmas Spirits

I realize today is December 9, 2009. There is around 22 days before the end of this decade. I remember 10 years ago this time, people were all so worried about Y2K. Time flies by when you are there. 10 years later, I am here writing my miserable papers. 
Just because it is like 16 more days until xmas... I feel like I should get into the whole Christmas spirit. (consider we just got our first snow like this morning in the am) While I am studying, I decide to turn on some Christmas music. My favorite to listen- Oh Holy Night. After listening to a whole hour of O Holy Night ranging from Nsync to Josh Groban to Celine Dion to Pavarotti... I am still not in a Christmas spirit. Consider I am such a holiday fan... it kills me that I am not in the spirit yet. Maybe I am listening to emo xmas music. Oh well!~ 

I wish there's a pill that you can pop and you will automatically have the Christmas spirit. 

5 more days until freedom! but 2 more days until death...